I had to post this again Some people said it was all in symbols :S

Im getting to really like writing my blog
Its Like an Internet diary :)

Anyway

So I Live My Whole Life Tyring to make others Happy
Even if it makes Me Unhappy
And the One thing that Can make me Happy
Is The one thing thats Making me sad
I was Recently Humped & Dumped Which Left me Self concious
And i then Entered a relationship I didnt really want to be in
And it ended rather Badly
But He was Telling me He Loves Me Before we even got together
I dont believe in telling someone you love them when you really dont
Especially when you Dont really Know the Person too well
Heres what happened
I regularly go to The Hair Salon where my friend works And help out
They're Also teaching me the Basics
(afro hair Salon)
And the Boss's Nephew Works there
So we get talking
Everyone tells me He Likes Me
So I Think 'whats the worst that can happen'
Now i realise
EVERYTHING
He Calls me every Day 'Where are you. What you doing. Who you with'
Its Supposed to be the girls who do that!
And this is when were Still Not together
So One day
I see him and my friend Talking
And then He's Telling me That we need to talk
Fair enough, we did need to talk
He asks me how i feel about him
And i Honestly didnt know at this stage . It bothered me to see him Talking to other girls
But Not to the extent of jealousy
But He doesnt want me talking to other guys. Coz im all his
Again fair enough
But He Still Hadnt asked me out
Then Later that same day
He Walks me to the Bus stop
We hug And he whispers in my Ear
'What do you think about a relationship?'
I couldnt answer
He Tells me He'll Phone me Later
So I get home And He Phones Me
He Has Something he wants to tell me
But he doesnt Know how
So after Alot of Umm's And Aaaah's
He finally Says It
The three letters Of doom
'I Love You'
Again I couldnt answer him
I was Speechless
All i want Is To Be in love and Be Loved Back
But Instead
I get A Lovesick friend telling me he loves me instead
So Hoping I could Develop my feelings further And knowing it would make him happpy
I say we should Try this relationship out
BAD IDEA!!
Everytime i saw his face
I hated myself
Everytime He called me his Girlfriend
I Hated myself
I Physically felt sick inside Everytime He Told me he loves me
But then i see him with about 10 girls holding them Hugging them
And i lost all respect
It gave me a reason to Dislike him
To drift away from him
And still the only time i ever got to see him was when i was in the salon
And He Loves Me
Why cant He Love someone Else
Someone he See's Everyday
Someone Who Can trust him
Someone who can actually Stand being in the same room as him
So. We begin to drift apart
I get ill and dont go to the salon for a couple of days
And He's telling my friend im stressing him out
Because I dont show any affection
And dont tell him i love him too
WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER 3 WEEKS!
Anyway
I dont talk to him
well Not as much as usual
If im stressing him out
why should i talk to him
And then he stops talking to me
Stops telling me he loves me
Stops contact all together
Result!
But thats Not the way i wanted things to end
Obviously Other things Have Happend That i have Left out on purpose
Like the fact He's Seeing other girls
Sleeping with other girls
But of course i dont know any of this
Coz his Friend never told me ;)
And i dont see him chatting them Up in town







Im Ready to settle down with the one i love and make a Life for us Despite my age
Problem Is . Im Not sure i know where he is

Relationships Are they The Main cause of stress?

So
Im Going through a rough time myself
And to make matters worse i have friends Asking for my help coz they want their Ex's Back
I feel like rippin their heads off
The relationship is over
MOVE ON
Maybe He'll want you back when he realises you dont care anymore
And if not Ohwell
Sometime's I cant be there for you
I have a life of my own aswell


Im getting to really like writing my blog
Its Like an Internet diary :)

Anyway

So I Live My Whole Life Tyring to make others Happy
Even if it makes Me Unhappy
And the One thing that Can make me Happy
Is The one thing thats Making me sad
I was Recently Humped & Dumped Which Left me Self concious
And i then Entered a relationship I didnt really want to be in
And it ended rather Badly
But He was Telling me He Loves Me Before we even got together
I dont believe in telling someone you love them when you really dont
Especially when you Dont really Know the Person too well
Heres what happened
I regularly go to The Hair Salon where my friend works And help out
They're Also teaching me the Basics
(afro hair Salon)
And the Boss's Nephew Works there
So we get talking
Everyone tells me He Likes Me
So I Think 'whats the worst that can happen'
Now i realise
EVERYTHING
He Calls me every Day 'Where are you. What you doing. Who you with'
Its Supposed to be the girls who do that!
And this is when were Still Not together
So One day
I see him and my friend Talking
And then He's Telling me That we need to talk
Fair enough, we did need to talk
He asks me how i feel about him
And i Honestly didnt know at this stage . It bothered me to see him Talking to other girls
But Not to the extent of jealousy
But He doesnt want me talking to other guys. Coz im all his
Again fair enough
But He Still Hadnt asked me out
Then Later that same day
He Walks me to the Bus stop
We hug And he whispers in my Ear
'What do you think about a relationship?'
I couldnt answer
He Tells me He'll Phone me Later
So I get home And He Phones Me
He Has Something he wants to tell me
But he doesnt Know how
So after Alot of Umm's And Aaaah's
He finally Says It
The three letters Of doom
'I Love You'
Again I couldnt answer him
I was Speechless
All i want Is To Be in love and Be Loved Back
But Instead
I get A Lovesick friend telling me he loves me instead
So Hoping I could Develop my feelings further And knowing it would make him happpy
I say we should Try this relationship out
BAD IDEA!!
Everytime i saw his face
I hated myself
Everytime He called me his Girlfriend
I Hated myself
I Physically felt sick inside Everytime He Told me he loves me
But then i see him with about 10 girls holding them Hugging them
And i lost all respect
It gave me a reason to Dislike him
To drift away from him
And still the only time i ever got to see him was when i was in the salon
And He Loves Me
Why cant He Love someone Else
Someone he See's Everyday
Someone Who Can trust him
Someone who can actually Stand being in the same room as him
So. We begin to drift apart
I get ill and dont go to the salon for a couple of days
And He's telling my friend im stressing him out
Because I dont show any affection
And dont tell him i love him too
WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER 3 WEEKS!
Anyway
I dont talk to him
well Not as much as usual
If im stressing him out
why should i talk to him
And then he stops talking to me
Stops telling me he loves me
Stops contact all together
Result!
But thats Not the way i wanted things to end
Obviously Other things Have Happend That i have Left out on purpose
Like the fact He's Seeing other girls
Sleeping with other girls
But of course i dont know any of this
Coz his Friend never told me ;)
And i dont see him chatting them Up in town







Im Ready to settle down with the one i love and make a Life for us Despite my age
Problem Is . Im Not sure i know where he is

Maybe its time to let go

So once there was this Guy
We were Best friends
Everyday Id Get a morning Text
'Morning Love'
He'd Be there for me Every single day if i needed him to be
But i was A Rubbish friend
I was to scared to go and see him
Too scared it was All unreal
I ruined it
No More Morning texts
No More 'I miss your smile'
No More Him
I Loved him
I Just never realised it
Now ive lost him

He Has Awesome Eyes
I can read is whole mind
He has the Softest Touch
Every touch Leaves GooseBumps
Even His Bites Are Soft

Gosh I miss him
But Maybe its for the best
.. Maybe

Hiia
So im new to this whole Blogging thingy
But i bet its Kinda fun
writing about lots of things for no reason